HATE THIS

Y IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME??this whole year has been tough. my results for assignments keeps deteriorating. i started working on my assignments earlier but still...i hate this. all those who can't even speak proper english are doing better than me. sometimes i juz feel like quiting. luck is definitely not on my side. what if i can't make it when i'm in NZ?? what if i do terribly in my exams and assignments there??no one can help. and i am not blaming anyone for this except myself. i am the problem. i always was. the black sheep of the class. sometimes i even feel like my frens dun love me anymore bcoz i'm not as good as them. my problemm, i always thought i am talented and an amazing girl but honestly i am nothing and a no one. i'm not good at anything i do. i can only talk the talk but i was never able to walk the talk. i envy those who can be so humble of themself. people like ekant, jaja, jee ying , cah , suya.....kamal.....so talented and good at everything they do. someday i wish i can be juz like them. someday..hopefully....